For those of you watching and following our journey, we have had some progress lately!
Last weekend we held a garage sale, and were able to raise over $800! I just want to give a huge THANK YOU to those of you who donated items to us, and those who came to shop. I have also been working on seven foot rulers that I sell as growth charts. I ended up having 9 orders for those, and I’m putting one in an auction.
PROGRESS: Last week I was able to wire my money to the RR facilitation team. This week we have started our online adoption training, my draft for my home study will be submitted, I have gotten proof of mortgage/homeownership, our copies of marriage licenses, and got my car inspected (not that I need that for my adoption, but it’s progress!). I also got my first 8 forms notorized and apostilled, and they are headed to Eastern Europe at the end of the week!!!
Thursday we are going to apply for our passports. I was going to do that last Thursday, but I have a gigantic fever blister on my lip. It’s still there, but I am trying not to be too vain because I really need to get it done. On a side note, when I had my C-sections with all three of my biological kiddos, I got fever blisters each and every time. I told Caleb I knew Heath was mine, because he was giving me fever blisters too! haha
I am wondering though, if anybody struggles with the same feelings that I do. Feel free to let me know if you do, so I don’t feel like a nut!
I want to spend every wakeful minute working on the adoption, and probably could because there’s so much to do. But I’m a full time mom to three and a house keeper. At the moment, I feel like I’m neglectful of my kids, and my house is a wreck! I am pulled so many directions, that there are times when I just sit down and cry for a minute. I did stop yesterday and play outside and ride bikes with the kids. It was so refreshing. I guess I’m not sure exactly where my main priority is or should be. Heath is my kid, too, and I need to do everything in my power to bring him home. We’re working through it, and we’ll all be OK.
I will say this. The online adoption training is making me anxious. Thanks a lot, social worker, for making us do it even though our country doesn’t require it! At age twelve, apparently the brain prunes itself, and that has me concerned that Heath is going to be harder to break through to. Has his brain lost all the connections that it needs to connect with us and new experiences? Please pray for my poor baby and that his mind will be ready to handle us and his big changes, and that we will be there before too much longer.
Also pray for Caleb and me. We have always and still do have such an incredible, extraordinary relationship. We are fiercely devoted to each other, and loving each other has always been easy. I am constantly conscious of amount of love I have for him, and it never ceases to amaze me. And I see that love for me reflected in his honey colored eyes (he looks at me differently than everyone else.). When we started this process, our friends–who are in country now–advised us to not lose each other through all the paperwork and red tape. I halfway thought he was crazy, but I understand now. With our three kids, housework, the broken lawnmower, and his long crazy hours, I feel like I don’t see much of him. We miss each other. And there are times when he is home, and we’re not busy, that I am so stressed out, that I find my self biting his head off about silly things, or we just pass smooth out–haha! Pray that we don’t lose each other….and maybe that we can have a date night before too long =) We are still us. We are still good. We are just caught in a whirlwind.
Thank you all for your prayers. Thank you for loving our Heath, and thank you for loving us. It is so amazing at the support system that we have through RR. All of you mean so much to me. Y’all are a special kind of people.